tears dry on their own

Transient weight between cerebellums

 

Yesterday, rocking on the bus, I vomited the contents of my only meal

The engine failure in gray mass looks through the windshield

My position was too politically "incorrect"

 

The question is how the female seagull is said in English in just one word

Because a female seagull is not the same as a seagull, if we are guided by gender-sensitive language

 

She is sitting on the boards of an unknown pier

Dressed in black, as always, looking somewhere

Far outside towards me

 

When I wake up in the morning with a transient weight between cerebellums

In a figurative sense, it is difficult to explain the mechanical maneuvering in the bus

 

Steps with the dog on the podium

Elderly people with incises on their faces

I would stand by waiting for tears dry on their own

 

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11.54 h – 12.02 h

01/01/22

Saturday

(West London)

U susret rodnom gradu

 

O staklu, o ogradi, o zidovima

 

Vozim bicikl od davnina kući

gazim suve leševe mrtvih stonoga

na plavim izrezima tepiha

ispred wc-a:

ne zaboraviti povući vodu

obrisati prašinu

odbaciti ničim izazvane nesporazume

o tobožnjim vlasništvom nad rečima i jezikom

oranžada i cut-up prelazi u black-out –

crno pred očima

 

Ne, ti nisi ta osoba

iako sam imao drugačiji utisak pre odrastanja

talasi koji se miču stoje oko metle

njima bi trebalo brnjicu na njušku

Vindišova žena odnosi metlu u šupu

„Bila je poštarka“, kaže.

„Podrigivala je i smrdela.......“

na nivo obdaništa moždane razvijenosti

u kupatilu idem za šinama

sa šlemom

ograda se završava dok prilazim

iz slivnika ka lavabou sredstvima za dezinfekciju.

 

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11.26h – 11.34h

četvrtak

03.06.2021.

(West London; Svetski dan bicikala & biciklista)

[tokom priprema za posetu Szabadki]

[kurziv – Herta Müller]